Tonight I walked two miles...its part of my effort to fit into a size 9. I am being perfectly healthy about it even though I know my mentality isn't. I feel HUGE even though I know I am not. Most of my problems stem from the fact that I view myself as unattractive and the fact that I have a permanent food baby. It doesn't help that I have been having a difficult time with my depression lately. Makes it hard to be motivated when you have no faith or love, for yourself. I wish I could be back to jow I was when I graduated high school. I ballooned after that. I know when it started but I am too ashamed to admit it outloud. I have been curbing how much I eat lately and am working out now. Hopefully working out twice a day will help.
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