Can it be?

Over a year later and I still feel that irge to serve a mission. My heart is sad that I haven't gone. I worry that if I go I will lose all I have built with Robert. I know that is a selfish thing, but he is important to me.
I am starting to prepare...well trying to be stronger in faith and gaining a knowledge of the gospel and the church. Barbara and I will be living the mission schedule soon and we are both considering it. I just don't want to regret not going. I don't want to ignore this feeling. I am not running from anything this time and I am in a somewhat better place than before. I still have things to work on, but I think I can do it.