Big Steps!

Tonight I start off on a new journey. It is one that I have been looking forward to and I am finally getting the guts to set the plans rolling.

Would You Like Fries with that?

I am working at McDonald's in Mesquite...well one of them and I am quickly becoming the Drive Thru Queen! Okay so maybe my skills aren't that impressive yet, but for only three days and being able to take orders and stuff with minimal supervision is pretty impressive. AND I clean dishes and make parfaits and salads (well eventually) I did make 5 parfaits tonight so whatever! My hours are the later shift hours so that will be fun and basically that is when I am most awake anyways. My feet are killing me though but now I have the proper shoes and some foot gel pad stuff so I should be fine! Also I work with Morgan Jobst and I am pretty sure it is awesome. Everyone is so nice and helpful and it is really a fun experience so far.

Friday we had a surprise party for Barbara at Logandale park, it was pretty awesome and although we didn't get to watch any movies, we did play a ton of fun games and we had awesome frosting wars and water fights. I think almost everyone got frosting on their face/hair and water squirted on them. Of course Oliver went and dumped two bag fulls of water on me...and neglected to return to the favor to jason who has squirted him with water too. Robert and I wrestled over a gun, he did squirt me a couple times, but I ended up with the gun so in all due respect I have to say that I won. He is pretty strong though and I had to really try haha but I STILL GOT IT!!!!!

This past week I was out in California taking Erica home from Nevada. I came home on Wednesday after picking up Barbara who happened to be in Huntington Beach....yeah I managed to get lost and ended up near San Pedro Harbor...I turned around and found the PCH than a short while later I found Barbara. It was a fun ride home and I am glad we got to spend quite a bit of time together. We saw Alice in Wonderland on Saturday and tomorrow morning she is leaving to Rexburg since school starts on Tuesday for her...I am really going to miss her. That woman is my best friend and it really sucks not seeing her, even though we talk all the time.

I need to go and talk to President Leavitt. I have to get the ball rolling on some things and I know he can help me with them. I have a lot to think about and a lot to plan for and I need some guidance. He will know what to do. I am so excited though for this year. I have a feeling a lot is going to be changing and soon!!!

Miracle League!!!!

This Saturday is the Miracle League Opening and I am going to be a buddy for two of the three games! I am so excited about it and I am just THRILLED that FINALLY after like 6 years the field is up and running and that I get to be a part of such a wonderful organization! Helping people with disabilities to play America's favorite pasttime....seriously how wonderful is that?!

I invite everyone who can make it to 101 South Rancho Drive, Las Vegas, NV on the 10th to come out and enjoy it! You can sign up to be a buddy (only wise if you plan on coming to games to help play) or if you are just visiting you can watch and buy a shirt or a hat and just enjoy the wonderfulness of it all!

I can bet you there won't be a dry eye in the place when Dan "the Man" throws that first pitch! He has been practicing and I have heard that he has quite an arm!

YAY MIRACLE LEAGUE!!!!

A whole new ME

Well people it has come to that point in my life were I am making changes...big ones too.

The first major change is that I am changing how and what I eat. Oh yes indeedy I most certainly am. I will be cutitng back on meats and eating more veggies and fruits and what not. Mainly I will have a vegetarian-esque lifestyle from now on. Why would I break up my relationship with meat you ask? Well it isn't just meat who is getting the boot. I am also kicking out my dear sweet friends, like junk food, chips, candies, and *sniff* soda. Okay so you all know I am probably going to fail at times and gorge on chips and overdose on soda, BUT for the most part I will be maintaining a strict diet. Not only am I doing it to get healthier, I am doing it because it is proven that a healthy diet helps with depression. I also just want to cut out the unhealthy crap I keep loading my body up with. If anyone gives me any crap about my change well I will have to think of some things to say to them, but whatever I am doing this for me and not for them!

The second major change is that I am working out more. Yes it is painful, and yes I am sore all over, but the fact that it makes me feel good and look even better is what is important. I let myself go these past few years and I am working on getting my body back into shape and getting myself down to a healthy weight. So far I have lost 15 pounds and I am excited about that. My clothes fit a bit better and my pants are actually not tight around the waist area! I am hoping that by the time summer comes around I will be more comfortable in a bathing suit! I am not asking for perfection, I am just asking for healthy.

The third major change is that I am getting my head on straight and working on getting back into the swing of things with Church. I will admit that I haven't been the best at attending. I have let so many different reasons stop me from going, that I actually forgot that I LIKE going to church. I LIKE my religion and I am happy with it. I know the Church is true, sometimes the people in it aren't but the doctrine is true. I have been struggling though because of something that has recently come up, but I know that if I do what I need to that things will go as they need to.

That is the three main changes right now. I have mainly just learned to let go and to love life. It can be pretty crappy at times and sometimes I just want it to end, but I know that I am not seeing the big picture. It all is a matter of perspective and lately mine has been pretty skewed.

My big "AHA!" Moment

Last night I was sitting in bed when I realized that I had been had...duped....outfoxed....bamboozled...and by a cunning opponent at that. I have been sitting around worrying about something that I know I don't need to worry about at all. It's like my brain has been tricked into thinking I need to go one way when every other part of me knows that I need to go the other way. How dumb and selfish have I been to let my mind wander off the path that I am supposed to be on?

OI VEY! I totally need a new brain sometimes.

Sometimes

I have had major cabin fever lately because I have been house ridden due to my strep throat. OI I feel like I am going to EXPLODE any second now. Luckily though my mom says that tomorrow I am free to escape and go have fun outside of the house! YIPPEE!!!! I am really excited because I feel like my butt has almost gotten permanently stuck to the sofa since I basically haven't had the energy or will to do anything else. *BLEGH*

Luckily though I am turning things around. I applied to go work a summer job at Lake Powell with some fellow MG's and I have decided to work out even more and lose more weight before working there (if I get a job) and I am pretty excited about it. Also I am writing You-Know-Who more and I don't care if he gets my letters or even reads them....okay I do....in fact I feel like going to ripping the postal system a new one and teaching them how to handle mail. I mean really now it isn't that hard if people would stop being retarded.

Erica is coming home soon and that is pretty dang cool. I won't be able to see her most likely which is pretty sad, but whatevers I might have to work so there isn't really anything I can do about it. I like work and everything, except the standing forevers on my feet part, but the rest is pretty cool. I am not working this week due to the fact that I have strep and that my boss thought I was going to quit which I wasn't at all! I happen to like being employed and I am really just happy with life lately.

I have been thinking about everything and I am happy with where I am and what I feel is right. I even have support from people who I for sure thought was going to think I am being stupid....but apparently they see things the same way and that means more to me than anything. I feel more...validated...hahaha like I am not crazy for seeing things that actually are there. I mean I thought I was being silly, but to have others see it...well that just is the icing on the cake. One year down and just a few more months to go. *sigh* That is when we will all see what happens.

EURGH

I feel like such a burden on my family. I am such a waste really. My mom is upset because I am using her stuff without asking (hairspray and the like), but she doesn't really say anything about it so I have someone else telling that to me and it makes me feel like a piece of crap. How awkward is it that? I feel so dumb living at home. I hate telling people that I am back at home and not at school. I have started working and I like working and everything, but seriously I feel like I need to get out of here or at least get my own place somewhere as soon as I can afford it. Maybe Tonya and I can get a place soon. Possibly by this summer or whatever. All I know is that I need to get my own place. I hate feeling like a freeloader and like some little kid again.

I had a date on friday and it was a blast! I got asked to go ice skating by Steven and his brother and Jessica came along. We went ice skating in St. George, than ate at this really great stir fry place, and than watched Alice in Wonderland. That movie is amazing and mindblowing yet it is so weird and leaves you feeling odd. I really enjoyed it. I had fun on the date and it was pretty amazing. I know I am not saying much about it, but there really is not a whole lot to say other than it was really fun.